Screaming update...

When people say its not good to keep things inside.... its not just some corny american pop phycology......... I told everyone exactly what I thought of them ......I broke a wine glass and had a good cry and ever since the screaming has stopped.

involuntary screaming

I don't really put any effort in to these anymore...fuck it all I don't care. I keep having these bad thoughts and I keep screaming, theres no warning I can't control it my mums the same insensitive ignorent bitch she's always been and says things like "For goodness sake what on earth will the tenants think" It seems to be connected with certain key words. I hear a certain word and I go FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU like that. Its not Fuck its almost fuck its the word that comes out half the time but as soon as I hear myself it turns in to a scream. More often than that its just a scream. The stress of everything is getting to me and because I can't ever get a resolution with any of it I'm stuck just screaming all the time.